Memoirs Of A Geisha-American

Me No Luv You Long Time...

Monday, February 06, 2006


Hello all. I am a psych major who used to be your classic self-hating Asian-AMERICAN girl with a fetish for all things vanilla ice. See, I never wanted to be the ASIAN-American girl, but the ALL-American girl. And the easiest shortcut and litmus test to that in my narrow eyes was...a trophy White boyfriend (nerdy slob or not).

Anyways, after a looong series of demeaning and fruitless encounters with White men, I finally came to the conclusion - that they were never dating ME, but the warped Hollywood hentai fantasy that they projected upon me.

And upon further research, considering the historical sexual legacy of White men in particular - often coupling with Black slaves, wartime "gooks," native heathens, mail-order brides from impoverished countries, underage children and barnyard animals - I came to the simple conclusion:

White men most prefer to mate only with creatures they feel are INFERIOR to themselves. In the pre-feminist era, that included most White women. However, since the 60s, they have been forced to omit many of them in favor of race-climbing minorities, children and occasionally 4-legged mammals.

So, where I USED to feel flattered by their crude advances and gropes, I can now only feel deeply INSULTED and enraged!

Ladies, heed my warning well and ask yourselves the same hard questions that I have - before you waste half your life chasing fool's gold. Please don’t learn the hard way like I did!

Rebecca Yu


At Saturday, September 23, 2006 at 9:01:00 AM PDT, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Haha! And don't forget about necrophilia!


Lancaster, Wis. (AP) - A photo that accompanied a newspaper obituary apparently led to an attempt last weekend to dig up the grave of a 20-year-old woman who was killed in a motorcycle accident Aug. 27, authorities said Tuesday.

Three men charged with taking part in the attempted grave robbery had no connection to Laura Tennessen, other than seeing her obituary, Grant County Sheriff Keith Govier said.

"They never had any contact with her, did not know her or of her until her passing away was published in an obituary," he said. "It was a fluke thing."

Twin brothers Alexander and Nicholas Grunke, 20, of Ridgeway, and Dustin Radke, 20, of Dodgeville, made initial appearances in Circuit Court Tuesday on charges of attempted third-degree sexual assault and attempted misdemeanor theft.

According to court documents, Radke told investigators he brought Nicholas Grunke to the cemetery earlier last week, and Grunke wanted to find Tennessen's grave.

Radke said Grunke asked him to help because he wanted to dig up Tennessen's body for sex, the court documents said, and the three had stopped at a store on the way to the cemetery to buy condoms.

"Just when you think you've seen it all, something strange like this happens," the sheriff said.

At Tuesday, December 19, 2006 at 10:28:00 AM PST, Anonymous Anonymous said...

From all the movies you see about white guys cheating on girls and having an ego the size of texas, its amazing that it took you even this long to realize it.

At Friday, December 22, 2006 at 8:41:00 AM PST, Blogger Toad734 said...

In case you are wondering I have never had yellow fever nor do I look for a mate who I feel is inferior. Maybe you should take a step back and look at the type of men you date.

Guys with tricked out cars may not be where its at.

At Friday, December 22, 2006 at 7:07:00 PM PST, Blogger Lavinia said...

This is awesome!!!! Thanks so much for enlightening us!

At Friday, February 23, 2007 at 5:18:00 PM PST, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I agree with Toad, look at the guys you were dating, not exactly top shelve. I see that so often, an asian woman with a dorky or loser white guy who have no social skills or style at all. We all know that it's the woman that picks the man, so maybe it is you that got you where you were with these guys. Rather than bash these losers, consider dating better guys.

At Friday, February 23, 2007 at 11:21:00 PM PST, Anonymous Christina Xu said...

Just because you're Asian and empowered doesn't mean you can't be racist. The statements you make in this blog post would be completely unacceptable if applied to other races. If you can't replace "white" with "black" or "latino" or "Asian" without making the sentence offensive, why would you say it about white people?

In the middle of your rage, do keep in mind that on the whole, white males are LESS SEXIST than Asian males. The majority of Asian cultures have not come close to reaching the gender equality found in predominantly white cultures.

And while it is true that white men have a history of raping minorities or animals or whatever, it is also true that Chinese men once forced their wives/concubines to bind their feet, the Japanese army once raped thousands of women in China, et cetera. When you hold individuals accountable for the actions of other individuals simply because they look the same, you are being racist. And when you're saying something as ridiculous as "all white men are evil", you're also being just plain stupid.

I commend you on your goals for this blog. Helping Asian girls improve their self-esteem is really an important thing to do. However, I disagree with the method of knocking down others to do it. I understand that yes, there are many cases of exploitation of Asian girls, but insulting every white person is not going to fix it. On the same lines, don't automatically assume that all Asian girls who are dating white men are being taken advantage of. Some of the happiest couples I know are Asian/White, and in all cases the woman enjoys an equal partnership with her boyfriend or husband.

So: keep up the cause, but please change your tactics.

Christina Xu

At Saturday, February 24, 2007 at 6:47:00 PM PST, Blogger Rebecca Yu said...

"Christina," I'll be uncharacteristically tactful here because I used to think exactly like you, before my own enlightenment. So, I know exactly where you're coming from (American brainwashing).

First off, some sexism & racism is natural and acceptable within extreme bounds.
Are you hetereosexual? Then you're sexist.
Do you make racial generalizations like "white males are LESS SEXIST than Asian males?" Then you're racist.

Secondly, you assert that White males are less sexist than Asian males. I would some degree.
I believe Asian males actually shoulder more of the responsibilities in Asian culture and cater to the women more.
This puts them voluntarily below par to us based upon gender - which would make them more "sexist."
They are the ultimate providers who take care of their parents in their decrepit old age, their wife & kids and their wife's family as well. And any society that deems this as "sexist" and wrong is not bound to survive very long. Well, what direction do you see the US as headed?

Now, compare that to "non-sexist" American males - where 40% of babies are born to single mothers, the divorce rate is 50% and 55% of them cheat. Well, call it "sexist," but I'd rather be treated like a woman than an animal. I've had enough of that BS relabelled as if I'm getting treated better.

Thirdly, you're also wrong about footbinding. No man ever forced a Chinese woman to bind her feet. It was a fashion fad that started from the imitation of Western "ballet dancers," and was eventually passed down matriarchally after that. It was essentially the Tang Dynasty version of boob jobs or corsets.

"Tang court women followed Persian and Turkish fashions, wearing dresses with tight-fitting bodices, pleated skirts, and hats with enormous veils. And it was apparently imitation of foreign toe-dancing groups that originally led upper-class Chinese women to bind their feet. At first it was just palace dancers who bound their feet slightly, like ballet dancers, to stand on their toes." - When China Ruled the Seas: The Treasure Fleet of the Dragon Throne, 1405-1433 by Louise Levathes

3 strikes...and you're out.

No seriously, thanks for reading and I hope you learned something. That is the main aim of my blog.


At Sunday, February 25, 2007 at 4:01:00 AM PST, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Jeezy Chreezy, you are an angry woman. I've experimented with my own racist theories to try and simplify my perception of the world in the past and it is always amazing how something happens to me that completely blows the theory out of the water.
You're a pysch major and as I'm sure you've already been told, there's no better pathos to start analyzing than your own.
The fact of the matter is, I don't think you even know who you hate. If we peeled back one layer (Caucasians) I think we would actually discover you are actually angry towards towards the male gender in general, irrespective of race.
Let's get one thing completely clear: Men in general aren't a bad bunch but when it comes to sex, we are as loyal as our options. This is why the human species runs this planet at 6B+ strong. If initiating the procreative act of sex was up to homo sapiens of the more sexually circumspect and selective female gender, another randier species with oposable thumbs would dominate (racoons, anyone?).
So,nearly all heterosexual men of sound mind and body will usually take up any offer of heterosexual sex- if they think they can get away with it. Sadly, for most, the opportunities are few and far between.
As women ARE typically the pursued gender and women ARE the ones who ultimately decide if sex will occur (except of course in the case of rape) the average Joe (or Minh, Enrique or Tyrell, for that matter) will pursue the path of least resistance to consciously or unconsciously realize their DNA's ultimate purpose for their physical being- to ejaculate in fertile females.
-Ethnic/cultural "climbing" minorities?
-Younger women with absent father figures?
-Single moms with few options?
- Prostitutes?
Doesn't really matter, does it? "Yellow Fever" in this country is actually a very recent phenomenon. You've got a bunch of horny guys, most of them white because this country's mostly white (for now, anyway) which has long been a factor as constant as the North Star.
Then you've got asian women, who due to massive immigration on either their or their parents behalf have recently become a major blip on the demograhic radar.
Lo and behold, the two aforementioned groups are running into each other at work and school at record rates and sizing each other up to see what one might be able to get out of the other- the male/female dynamic as old as sex itself.
I've already articulated what men want white, asian, whatever- easier ejaculation opportunites with a minimum of bullshit. For whatever reason, word on the street is (true or not) asian women are the ticket. The fact that these women ARE asian is really incidental to the above need and its perceived solution.
The question remains, what do asian women want in white men that feeds the Yellow Fever dynamic? Is it a sense of cultural inferiority? Perceived penis size? A perception of comparative feminist empathy? Perceived looser purse strings? Does it really matter?
If both parties find what they're looking for, bully for them. And bully for the human gene pool. Sex is what is because our DNA wants it to be that way, right wrong or indifferent. Attach more significgance to it than that and you're in for a lifetime of misery relating to the simpler but mostly decent gender- regardless of ethnicity.

At Sunday, February 25, 2007 at 9:08:00 AM PST, Blogger Rebecca Yu said...

^ Duh, I AM angry...and have a RIGHT to be. If you just bought a new car off a lot and it turned out to be a lemon, wouldn't you be angry too?

Anyhow, I don't disagree with your "Discovery Channel" explanation. Yes, men will generally seek the "easier ejaculation opportunites," while women will select more for percieved power, status, etc.

But it is these perceived racial notions that form the underpinnings of many of these relationships that I am examining in further depth here, beyond the surface stereotypes. And many of them are mutable social constructs that don't hold up under closer scrutiny. Do you have a problem with that?

At Saturday, May 19, 2007 at 1:14:00 AM PDT, Anonymous trixnee said...

Hey Miss Yu, I had a similar "awakening" to yours, except I'm not an Asian woman. I think the only reason I ever liked white guys was because of media brainwashing. Fortunately, I've come to my senses, and see white guys for what they are! On average hispanic, asian, and black men are sooo much better looking ;-)

At Thursday, October 4, 2007 at 10:05:00 PM PDT, Anonymous Captain America said...

"Oh, no! Someone is being racist against white men! Quick, call the National Guard!!!"

Please. Gag me with a fucking spoon. No, make that a pair of chopsticks.

You can tell which commenters are white men; all their reponses amount to the same, single line: "I feel threatened by what you write." Being rejected by even a single woman on the basis of race is intolerable for them. Ah, but such is the life of privilege.

Those non-whites who feel the need to defend white men - the most racially privileged group in the world - from minority racism see racism exactly the same way that white people do: as a purely individual phenomenon rather than an institutionalized system. Which, incidentally, is another aspect of white privilege: having a legion of non-whites to defend your race at any given moment.

Discussion with this sort is pointless; it's like a religious fundamentalist arguing morality with an atheist. No one is going to get anywhere.

Anyway. For those who are concerned about the racism against white people on this blog - fuck you. Nobody cares what you have to say. Go start your own blog on the oppression faced by the white man.

At Friday, January 18, 2008 at 1:31:00 PM PST, Anonymous Anonymous said...

--^ haha, for real, I've had enough racism towards me by white people...for what? I haven't directed any racism towards them EVER.

At Friday, March 7, 2008 at 2:56:00 PM PST, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Hi, my name's Rebecca Yu and I date losers because I have low self esteem. Because they happened to be of a certain race, I can now conclude that everyone in that race is a "lemon" so I can avoid personal accountability and retain my narcissism. Look how I put them down and that builds me right back up! Look how I project my perceived racial notions on society as a whole and use Hollywood as a scapegoat for my inexcusable personal opinions!

...Get cancer.

At Tuesday, April 1, 2008 at 6:49:00 PM PDT, Anonymous rewind said...

What about 4-legged furniture?

Man Caught Having Sex with a Picnic Table

BELLEVUE, OH - A man in central Ohio is accused of having sex with his picnic table.

The investigation began when a tipster gave police three DVDs showing Arthur Price having sexual intercourse with a metal round table on his deck.

The incidents occurred between January and March 2008.

Police say the DVDs show Price involved in a sex act in his bedroom. He walks out to his deck, tilts the table on its side and has sex with it.

Police say Price lives near an elementary school.

Price admitted that he had sex with the picnic table
when police questioned him.

He confirmed to police the incidents caught on the DVDs and said he had also had sex with the table inside the home.

Price faces four counts of public indecency. He is free on a $20,000 bond.

At Monday, April 28, 2008 at 10:23:00 PM PDT, Anonymous dénouema said...

And what about an Austrian man who locked his own daughter in a concrete basement from when she was 18 until her 40s and repeatedly raped and impregnated her for 24 years? Leaving her with 6 kids, and half of them imprisoned in the basement with her?

Indeed, "A whole country has to ask itself what it was that has gone so fundamentally wrong."

And is Tom Cruise going to star in the movie?

At Friday, September 19, 2008 at 7:30:00 PM PDT, Anonymous mamamiasan! said...

Well, you're right girl, I have to say!

After years of dating and a failed marriage..

I have to agree. You're 100% absolutely RIGHT. :(

You're just lucky you figured this out before mariage->kids->divorce->single mamahood.

At Monday, June 15, 2009 at 1:28:00 PM PDT, Anonymous Ben Zhang said...

I've learned a lot from this blog. Asians are the master race. We should have a genocide! I love feeling better about myself by putting others down based on their skin.

At Friday, January 29, 2010 at 8:36:00 PM PST, Anonymous yimdatingdown said...

Its been a while since my wife left me (about seven months) and I find myself yearning for someone to share my home with, partiularly when my boys arent here.

A simple enough wish, one may say, one that most single people share. My problem is that, due to the fact that I cannot get out an meet people due to a sun allergy (I've taken to calling myself Gollum or Smeagol because I rarely leave my cave) I find that internet dating is pretty much the only option.

This too in not uncommon. However, after some time spent trying to meet people, only to be rebuffed when they learn of the conditions that go hand in hand with being involved withy someone with solar urticaria, most western women tend to shy away. Moreover, most western women around my age (I'm 37) have kids by now, and they say they dont want to subject theit kids to the restrictions inherent with living with me.

For myself I cant blame them. The only reason I can tolerate the thought of my boys living with me one week out of two is that they can be normal kids when they go to their mother. Hell most of the time I can barely stand living with me.

This is where the idea of finding someone from one of the asian countries comes into play. Dont et me wrong, I'm not one against interracial marriages. Indeed I've always had a bit of a thing for asian women. What troubles me is the feeling that I'd be taking advantage of women desperate to escape a life of near poverty just to fullfil my selfish desires.

Australian men tend to be favoured by many of these women, particularly those from the Phillipines and Fiji. I have seen them walking at shopping centres walking around with men 20 or 30 years their senior, and I cant help but wonder how bad things must have been in their own country that they felt the need to basically prostitute themselves in that way. I also worry that those with children will not think of the consequences of bringing them into my envrionment.

I know these are adults capable of making their own decisions. I just feel like a heel for taking advantage of their desperation, and I know I'll feel like a pervert when some of the younger ones, the ones barely out of their 20, begins offering themselves.

I'm not condeming these women. I pity them.

At Monday, August 2, 2010 at 8:15:00 AM PDT, Anonymous Anonymous said...

You fool! Haha, jk. Glad you came to your senses.

At Tuesday, May 3, 2011 at 7:41:00 PM PDT, Anonymous susu89 said...

Canadian-born Dickson who, according to his father trawled dating sites for Asian women, is charged with the first-degree murder of English language student Qian ‘Necole’ Liu.

The 23-year-old’s semi-naked body was found in her flat near York University in northern Toronto after her frantic boyfriend was forced to watch 6,000 miles away in Beijing as she struggled with her attacker.

The perverted discussion topics commented on by the person using Dickson’s account included: ‘Incest??? and what about it’ and ‘How old should a girl need to be to be in a porn?’.

Under the later post are the words: ‘I'm thinking that they should change the age to 12. They should also start recruiting out of schools.’

Other postings asked for users to comment on ‘encouraging your kids to watch porn’ and ‘is incest legal anywhere in the world?’.

Under the pseudonym ‘dj_jake_the_snake’, the Toronto man also discussed topics including ‘How long are you going to live?’, ‘Stalkers’ and ‘Getting older and (not) making friends’.

'My gut had a negative feeling about him, despite the friendly exterior,' Miss Feheregyhazi said. 'He had a very mild exterior - quiet, awkward exterior - but something behind that might be a little frightening.’

At Sunday, April 15, 2012 at 3:51:00 PM PDT, Anonymous uright said...

in the time I’d been out of circulation, relations between the genders had changed. In this post-feminist age, many women had priorities other than finding the man of their dreams. As a child of the ’60s, I certainly understood and appreciated their increasing independence. But the pendulum had swung so far that almost every man I knew desired a committed relationship, and almost every woman, well, wasn’t so sure.

Then I began noticing the stunning friendliness of the women I found there. More important was their willingness—no, eagerness—to commit to someone like me.

It was as if I had been magically transformed from an invisible older man into a rock star whose company women craved. Of course that appealed to my ego. On a deeper level, though, it appealed to my need for stability in a world in which the love I wanted seemed impossible to find. Here was a culture in which women seemed to have traditional values, were open to matrimony, and even dreamed of blissful lives in American suburbs.

What stood out here was that the Filipino women actually were looking for something I could provide—a better life in the U.S.

At Monday, January 27, 2014 at 9:35:00 AM PST, Anonymous halfasianhalfdead said...

I feel I was groomed from birth, had it written from birth to be a prostitute to white and other non asian men. The eurasian son of asian female/white male couplings feels emasculated by his parents union. He feels emasculated at birth, he feels doomed to live stripped of his masculinity . The eurasian female is doomed from birth to be a prostitute to white and other non Asian men as a result of her mother’s poor choice. I feel I was doomed to be a semen receptacle. I do not belong to any “in group” I am forever doomed to be a woman without brethren to back her. Forever doomed to be an “othered” slut.I prefer asian men. I steer clear of White and other non asian men in my dating choices. but that doesn’t insulate me from the perceptions others have of me that I’ m a little half Asian prostitute.

It all became so clear to me at age 11. when my goofy white father decided to sit me down and have a chat with me about “what a beautiful young woman I was turning into” . He went on to tell me that I was only to date white men. When I asked him why, he told me that white men were “more civilized” and would be the only men capable of taking care of me, his little future semen receptacle princess. I asked him if Asian men were okay since I was half asian. He simply answered “no”. His racism became even more clear to me when my younger brother became of dating age and my father started pushing him towards asian girls and setting him up with young asian women (who I have no clue how the heck he met, nor do I want to know) who he would often assign descriptors such as “silky raven hair” and “petite” to. So it was written, my brother was supposed to end up with an asian woman, and I was supposed to end up with a white dood.

At Sunday, August 13, 2017 at 3:55:00 PM PDT, Anonymous FUHO! said...

Ever take a look in the mirror, honey? Or are you afraid of cracking it?

Next, a number of men remarked that their Japanese wives’ tendency to resort to anger or violence played a central role in leading to divorce. Let’s hear from a few of these cases.
“The reason that my marriage of 20 years failed was because my wife would often make a mountain out of a molehill. Many problems that could have been solved in a few minutes were blown out of proportion. It wasn’t good for our mental health.”
“I’m glad we got divorced. We split during our tenth year of marriage. I am now raising our two children in Australia. My ex-wife’s violent side was terrible. I couldn’t stand her lies anymore, or her neglect to our sons. It was a very bitter experience, but after getting divorced I am now living a much better lifestyle.”
“I first began to have doubts about the future of our marriage after just returning from our honeymoon when my wife farted right in front of me. Because she had irritable bowel syndrome, it was really smelly. Our marriage crumbled apart like flakes of paint falling from a wall. She would steal food from my plate and take anything she wanted. And she was really demanding in bed – if I couldn’t meet her demands, she would pinch my ears, hit me in the ribs, or kick me down there.”


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